I am not ready for the new year. This past year, like most, has had it’s mixture of good and bad and all kinds of stress. The future is always full of uncertainty and 2017 will likely be more of the same and I am not at all ready for it.
Of course with the coming new year most people are probably thinking about what their New Year’s Resolutions are going to be, but I haven’t made New Year’s Resolutions in a long time and honestly I don’t really see the point. Yes, there are things about myself that I would like to change — basically the stereotypical type things like wanting to be in better shape, wanting to make more time for all the hobbies that I want to work on, etc — there are things that I would like to work on and so forth, but honestly I don’t have the willpower/determination to really put the kind of effort that these resolutions would need to be completely and truly successful. I am sure that there are some people out there are who are reading that and thinking “Well that’s a really negative way to look at things.” or “You’re giving up before you even try!”, but I am just being honest and realistic and that honesty and realism is based on many years of experiencing lack of success due to my lack of willpower/determination. Everyone makes their New Year’s Resolutions with good intentions and I suppose that should count for something, but if more people were honest with themselves they would probably find them quite pointless.
It’s hard not too think ahead when you realize that another year is about to start, but I have been trying not too. There are too many things that are coming up this year that I am already apprehensive about, so I am really trying NOT to think about the future and all the ways that 2017 could go so terribly wrong. There are enough things in the here and now for me to get stressed over that I don’t need to be overthinking the future and what it might hold in store for me. Of course the flip side of not thinking about the future in order to avoid dwelling on the negative that I don’t really get to spend much time thinking of all the positive things that could happen and that I would like to have happen in the coming year.
I will say that 2016 was at least better than 2013, 2014 and 2015, so that is something and hopefully this upward trend will continue into the new year. For those of you out there that are struggling hang in there. As difficult as it is, and believe me I know just how difficult it can be, do your best. Take things 1 second at a time if you have to. I can’t count how many days I had to do just that in order to make it through the day. I know that you can make it and I want you to know that my wish for you is this: May the worst of your past be the best of your future.