So far 2016 has been (mostly) a year of the unexpected, in a really wonderful way. I would be lying if I said that I had expected it as the 2015 holiday season started. The truth is is that as the 2015 holiday season started I was very much unsure of what the new year would bring for me and lo-and-behold just a few weeks later I come face to face with a man that I have very quickly fallen for completely. A man who has been able to take my breath away at every turn and has, in our relatively short time together, managed to completely win my heart. I am just completely blown away by the fact that he has so quickly brought so much happiness and love back into my life and he is truly one of only 2 people who is able to bring a real, legitimate and sincere smile to my face each and every day.
Having been pleasantly surprised by how well this year has been going so far I actually have been looking forward to quite a few things coming up throughout this year. I am sure that makes me sound like my outlook before was nothing but negative, which isn’t the case, but it has been difficult to really look forward to and get excited about things when thinking about them and trying to plan them just reminds me how I am alone in doing all of these things. Now, if all continues to go as well as it has been so far, that will no longer be the case. It means a great deal to me that BD (the man that I have been seeing the past several months and have completely fallen for) has been telling me some of the things that he is looking forward to doing together. Not just with me, but with my son as well. It really means so much to me that he is so excited to not only meet my son, but to include him in activities.
The only thing I have been really frustrated with (aside from some of my dealings with my ex and the way that he unnecessarily complicates things) is that I feel even more like I do not have enough time to do all of the things that I really want and need to do everyday. My previously repetitive desire to either be able to clone myself at will or to not require any sleep for the rest of my life is something that I express a desire for almost everyday. — LOL — I know that there are many other people, parents and non-parents alike, that have a similar wish and I promise that if I discover the secret to either one of these I will gladly share that information with others. Who knows, with how well things have been going so far this year maybe I will actually figure one of those things out! — LOL
I have not always been one who enjoys surprises, but the surprise of finding and falling for BD, the surprise of how well things have been going so far this year and how much I am looking forward to what the rest of the year brings — those surprises have been the absolutely best kind and for the first time in what feels like a VERY long time I am able to look ahead more than just a few weeks without feeling the weight of wondering how I am going to accomplish some of these things all by myself. 2016 and the rest of my life look out because here I come!